I had a lucid dream, what does it mean?

Posted on April 29, 2016


Photo/James K Lowe.

The other night at around 12.30am, I had a lucid dream. I don’t really ever have lucid dreams, or not that I can ever remember, but this one was pretty hectic and I got woken up shortly after and because I felt so weird about it and wanted to analyse it later, I groggily noted down what happened in the notes section of my phone.

I’m not sure if anyone really is interested in hearing about my dream because I mean, it’s a dream, it wasn’t real, blah blah who cares? Either way, I hardly ever blog on here anymore so I’m just going to assume the only people who will see this are diehard fans or my parents so let’s go right ahead.

Firstly, some other weird shit happened in the dream, I was in a house, for some reason I was sneaking around and I was scared of being caught so there’s that. I don’t know why but it’s a common theme for dreams of mine (that, and being chased – terrifying) so yeah, no biggie.

The really weird part was that I was in a really high building, kind of like a motel building – you know the ones? They’ve got outdoor corridor/walkways with rooms along one side and a handrail along the other. So a building like that. It was warm, kind of how I think Singapore feels (not that I have been there). I was walking along, handrail on my left, doors to rooms on my right, and then I kind of looked down over the handrail. I was maybe 30 stories high. Then, because I was fully aware I was in a dream, I thought to myself, ‘I wonder what would happen if I jumped off this building?’, like would my mind quickly come up with something to break my fall? Would I die? Would I not be able to do it? Would I just start flying?

Anyway, I was kind of freaked out but I decided that I wanted to jump and if I died, well, it was a dream right? It was still scary but I jumped off and let me tell you, it was the most fucking terrifying, awful, stomach-dropping feeling. The last time I felt that sick was on that Tower of Terror at Disneyland California Adventure Park. It lasted forever, and it felt incredibly real, but I didn’t die. I actually almost slightly slowed down towards the end and landed like a cat and then a second later Ben woke me up, but that’s not really the point. The point is, why the fuck did I decide to jump off? What does that mean? Does it mean anything? And has anyone else had a lucid dream because HOW FREAKY ARE THEY? Any insights welcome.

The end. Happy Friday.

new faces in my old clothes

Posted on April 8, 2016




Becca Collyns at Clyne. All Photos/James K Lowe.

Yesterday James did some go sees* with new faces because you know, that’s what photographers do sometimes. I was there because you know, that’s what annoying, hang-er-on-er sisters do sometimes. It’s also really good just to stay in the loop with the girls in development because they turn into main board girls eventually, blah, blah, model stuff, etc.

Because we were doing this out of Thievery Studios and because James bought a new camera recently, we decided to take some pictures. And just to complicate things even further, I made the girls wear various items from my wardrobe for the pictures, some of which are below. Happy viewing!

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Twenty-seven Names opened a new flagship store and it is beautiful

Posted on March 22, 2016


Store imagery/James K Lowe for twenty-seven names.

My friends Anjali and Rachel have a brand called twenty-seven names, and I know you have heard me talk about it before but they opened a new store in Newmarket about a week ago and it is quite beautiful so I wanted to share some photos of it. Fun fact: they did it all themselves. How cool is that? Anyway, I went to see it and this is going to sound really nerdy but the coathangers are verrrry nice. I suggest you check it out if you are in the area.

To celebrate their opening I decided to do a short Q&A with Anjali, who is hilarious and super cool, has great taste in music and is basically everyone’s dream girl. Check it:

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Things to do in Auckland if you’re coming up for ACL

Posted on March 8, 2016

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Maddy Budd on Sentinel Beach. 

Being a born and bred Aucklander, I get asked a lot about where to go and what to do in this fair city of ours, and with Auckland City Limits coming up I thought it an appropriate time to pre-empt the questions and post some of my favourite things to do here for those visiting.

Firstly, you must eat somewhere good. There are plethora of brilliant dining options in Auckland right now so plan your culinary journey wisely! There is no sense in grabbing McDonald’s on the way from the Airport to your accommodation, it’s a waste of precious stomach space. I can’t actually list all of my favourite things to eat in this city because I will be here forever, but this is a small guide:

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Highs and Low(e)s/Happy Birthday to Blog

Posted on March 6, 2016


Spectators at a Sports Event, 1933. Photo/Martin Munkacsi.

It’s really weird, knowing that I have had this blog for seven years today. SEVEN YEARS. That is longer that Ben’s kid’s whole entire life. I’m so fucking old now, it’s mental. I’ve been thinking about it all day, how all these things have changed in the last seven years and how much of it is documented on here. (Not that it is easy to find now I have taken the easily accessible archive links away.) I had this whole idea last month that I was going to just shut this blog down today, on this birthday, some big dramatic shut down and then just never log in here again and never explain it to anyone and it would all just be gone, and then I started remembering weird posts I used to do like that one about that random guy who sent me a dick pic, or that weird one about how my workmate was in love with Jordan Rondel so we went to go find her (this is before I met Jordan aka The Caker) and I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. So here we are.

In some ways I miss those old posts. For sentimental reasons, yes, but also because back then no one really gave a shit about what I wrote and it was all just fun and real and it was just my life. Now it’s like, if I put things up people might see them and get upset or whatever. I don’t know, I’m just ranting now but the whole point of this post is that I have had this blog for exactly seven years today so here’s some Highs and Low(e)s of the last month. (The best thing about having been lazy with the Highs and Low(e)s is that I have gathered up a lot of things to put down):

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Better for it.

Posted on February 27, 2016

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This morning’s Nike Training Club session on the beach. 

I wasn’t sure about titling this blog post ‘Better For It’. Mostly because I know that of all the people who know that the phrase comes from Nike’s current women’s fitness campaign, 70% will write this off as a fitness post that they can’t be bothered read because let’s face it – unless you’re into fitness, fitness can be bloody boring to hear about.

So let me be upfront. This post is sort of about fitness, and yes it’s about Nike. No this hasn’t been paid for. In fact, contrary to popular belief, to date I have never taken (or been offered, lol) financial compensation or remuneration to talk about Nike. I mean, there’s no exclusivity here – I wear several sportswear brands (including adidas – I think I wear my Gazelles are the most worn sneaker I own). Yes, I have been gifted Nike product. Yes, I’ve been invited to attend their events. But just to clarify, no, to date I have never signed any contract of any sort with Nike.

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